Tsunamis suck.

= mtv sings [Green Day - Boulevard of Broken Dreams / Jay Sean - Stolen / Keane - This is the last time] =

I'm sure many of you have heard about the sad news that shook the earth, literally. My deepest condolences to those who've lost their friends, relatives or family members to the disastrous tsunami attack and for those who are still searching, keep the faith. For those unaffected, touch your heart and count your blessings. do what you can. donate $ to the Red Cross Society of Singapore. the many victims will thank you for your kind generosity.

anyway,

meet my new friend, Zen. Zen Micro.



5GB of capacity, Doubles as Removable Storage Disk, Built-In FM Tuner, 1 FREE spare batt. More...

what else can i ask for.

but... (yes there will always be buts.) there seems to be something wrong with the PC cable. Seems like my zen will automatically hang when i attempt to hook it up to my comp. a call to creative is in order. My CAPSLOCK KEY is SPOILT ! NBCB !

anyway,

went out with mel n gib just now. drove all the way to mt faber ! hahahaha. couples would be a norm, but we saw 2 guys sitting in one of the pavilion ! apparently they were either very very very good friends or they are gay. i mean, who the hell would jio their friend to a place like mt faber? E.G.

Ah Seng: "Free to talk?"
Ah Beng: "Ya."
Ah Seng: "Ok, meet me at Mt Faber the 3rd pavilion from the cafe."
Ah Beng: "Ok."

WTF? thats really gay lo. nuff abt that, had a drink at The Hill. so bloody expensive. who would have thought that a bloody cup of lipton tea would cost $5/-. at least i had something else. rofl.

anyway,

there are so many things i want add in this entry. thoughts kept poppin up in my mind the past few days. but for now, i seem to be stuck. hah. mayb i'll post another entry with regards to my new year escapade-cum-celebration. Happy New Year and may 2005 be really a wonderful year for everyone. i really hope. for me and for her.

Christmas Spirit. Pui.

= my speakers sing [nothing.] =

First off, Merry Christmas.


this xmas certainly holds a special meaning for me. for this has got to be one of my worst xmas ever due to some last min events.

my supervisor had a misunderstanding about me and the result was a punishment meted out to me that i thought was quite unfair. 5 tours of the hospital post. i mean, 5 tours isn't that bad. i've done 1 whole month of that duty before during my probation period. 5 tours is nothing. it's just that the whole idea of my supervisor not having trust in me is very very sad. one of my most respected supervisors has just shown me that he totally has no trust in me since a very long time. I feel sad, angry and disappointed. the basic trust is no longer there. this only means that most probably, in the next year, a transfer is imminent. what's the use of working in an environment where your supervisor doesn't trust you at all?

I quote dale carnegie,
"It isn't what you have,
or who you are,
or where you are,
or what you are doing that makes you happy or unhappy.
It is what you think about."

very sad isn't it. life's a bitch. what can i say. gotta just move on.

anyway,

last night after work managed to meet up with mao to "supposedly" celebrate xmas. after the incident at work, there isn't really much to look forward to. well, when i reached caesars, he was ¾ gone already. michael was like 99% gone n qirong was also 70% gone. naidu was pretty much still awake. afterall, 4 persons and a bottle of vodka is about just nice. but the second bottle had already been opened when i arrived. so there we were, drinkin to our heart's content even before midnight arrived. by the time xmas came, amao was concussed. michael was singing songs no one could understand, qirong n his gal were both gone and naidu left in search of a black christmas. me? i was in the backalley performing a stunt called the merlion. hahahaha it's just one of those days where you really wished that you will get drunk. i did.

so this ends my xmas escapade. full of drama and emotions. this yr's xmas will be one i want to forget.

Christmas. Blah.

= my speakers sing [nothing. I'm watchin sappy Hallmark xmas specials.] =

Jingle balls,
Jingle balls,
Jingle all the way,
Oh what fun it is to slap,
Your stupid face today.

Hey !

Dashing to the loo,
After one drink too many,
Tried to puke it out,
Fell asleep instead,

Heard knocks on my door,
Someone's singing to me,
What the hell are you singing,
Shut the f**k up la !

My own rendition of the latest xmas hit single, jingle your bloody balls.

hey peeps, it's xmas, get in the mood.

How am i supposed to spend my xmas when im knockin off at some time like... erm, 9? 10? ... hopefully i'll b able to get some sort of celebrations goin on with amao tmr night. haha
i don't know why, i'm feeling so bushed now. must be the stress level. yep, it's goin higher n HIGHER. i seriously need to wind down soon. im thinking way too much. well, merry christmas to all. may U enjoy spending christmas with that special someone ! wish i could say the same about me... oh well, fuck that. (^_^).!.

All I want for christmas...

= my speakers sing [nothing.] =

There is one thing I want for christmas now. iPod Mini ! ^.^

Quickie time !

= mtv now sings [Maksim - Kolibre / The Killers - Somebody Told Me / Electrico - Runaway] =

good morning singapore! just had a wonderful game of pool with mont, anthony n his bro (anderson i think) n of course the infamous moron jeff (btw all are my colleagues cept for anderson) at fusion3. to think that when i just arrived, jacob, wama n keigo just left ! the best part, they were goin down when i took the lift up ! played till the place closed as usual and then went to 201 for supper. twas till then i realised everyone cept jeff were from st hildas. what a small small world. had a great chat about the good old days when we were still young, when we were notorious and when people were actually still afraid of the police. of course not when policemen were wearing shorts. found out a couple of secrets and to think that someone i knew posed for FHM ! wtf?! haha the chat lasted for 2, 3 hrs? reached 201 at about 0345? i think we left at 6, thus this quickie post so early in the morning.

anyway,

that chat really got me thinking... it's been awhile since i last met up with any of my old schoolmates. since xmas is ard the corner, mayb its time for me to do some catchin up of my own... i miss those days when everyday was so carefree, we only thought whether the girl/guy next class would notice us, how to cheat in tests, fights, soccer, ecas, funny incidents etc. how i wish i could be given a chance to go through that experience once more. making friends were so easy... almost everyone was genuine & sincere. lookin back at those memories from 94 to 98, couldn't help thinking that there were so many things i could have done and could have not done... how i wish i had the courage to tell her how i felt about her during that time... but then again, regrets are just lame excuses. its time to keep the memories and move on, there are more accomplishments awaiting me...(2nd chances for me to xpress myself mayb?) reminiscing can be saved for later...

anyway,

nostalgia setting in, i cant help it...(pls someone, pls, slap me.) guess im gonna have a puff before retiring. my bed is beckoning for me...

so why not take a moment to revive those wonderful memories you've once had during those "happy" days? im sure a couple will bring a smile to your face. mayb theres something still stuck in your head, something waiting for you to end... a fued with a very good friend that you often regret over something stupid? a good friend that you havent met in a long long time? certain things you still havent told someone? a special person that you still think about once in awhile and wished that you had the chance to xpress some feelings...

Latenight thoughts.

= my speakers sing [Keane - Somewhere only we know] =

ahh... had another terrible day at work again. bloody busy from 8am to... 8pm. im so really working for every cent of my pay+bonus this month. met up with the usual suspects at simpang and also my beloved derrick ! been awhile since i last saw him, noticed that his boot had something xtra. new woofers ! big woofers ! woof ! WOOF ! had a nice n long chat with them, n saw my other colleague there as well, wat a freakin coincidence. simpang suddenly became the "happening" joint for me. rofl. gosh im so lame.

working in an environment mixed with different people from different races, ages sure widens my life. i mean, i feel that i've grown in a certain way eversince mixing around with my colleagues, more mature? more confident? more kuai lan? i dont know. but i'll always remember this line my mentor told me during my first week of orientation, i quote " take a picture of yourself now and take another picture a few years later. you will look different, in a more confident way." how true, how true. this job has changed me... then again, the stress level of this job never fails to drop, it can only go higher and higher. but what i've learnt thru the interactions with different people and the handling of different situations has broadened my perspective on life.

basically put, my job allows the insight of the stupidity of some, the avaricious side of some, the kindness... the good, the bad and the horrendous. period. sometimes i feel im "forced" to mature faster to be able to handle these situations... hopefully, i will be able to put what i absorbed to good use and not let it just drift away...

anyway,

enough of my work shit. it's a neverending story.

I just realised that half of my pay+bonus has magically disappeared ! ... !!! i have no idea where i spent it on, im currently left with half of my pay. i have got to start on a more concrete plan of saving $$$. im still considering a weekend car but when the thoughts of maintenance, petrol, parking, etc come to mind, i shudder. i mean, i can afford a car now, it's just a matter of me drinkin less, smokin less per month. but is it worth it? sure, a car is blardy useful. but heck, im stayin 5mins away from my office, i can even run there in a breath. if i use the vehicle, it's for my nightly outings but then again, do i really need it? i quote another colleague of mine, "buying a car is a luxury. no matter how much supporting statements you can come up with, as long as u buy it, its considered a luxury. it's not a necessity, its a luxury. u can also deem it as throwing $$$ into the sea. its an investment with 0 returns." guess i'll leave that thought static for the moment... hopefully a lucky toto strike will allow me to continue those thoughts...

anyway,

i have been "enjoying" singlehood for around 6 years, it's time for me to look for a partner. then again, i have been lookin all these while, it's just that, things cant really work out for me in my head when it counts. sure, i may look/sound like a whiner when i state these thoughts in my blog... but hey, it's my blog. bite me.

i've always believed in fate. i mean, in a universe so vast, a timeline of centuries, i am allowed to be borne in this era, gettin to know my people and deeming them as my pals, friends, etc. it has got to be fate of some sort. i believe its my luck too, to have known so many people i reckon as pals. but to no avail, i still have not found her. havent you tried believing that your partner is out there somewhere, mayb next to you on the train, walking past you in a busy street, standing behind you when you're ordering kopi-o? u get the idea. tried so many times till eventually at a certain stage, you'll give up trying. some people like to say, 顺其自然. but as my motto goes, an opportunity comes once in a lifetime, u'll dont get second chances on ur doorstep just like that. if u've never tried, u'll never know what u've missed unless u've tried. currently im tryin, not that hard. but will she know? i doubt so. mayb what the surveys say are right, asian men are afraid to express for fear of rejection. i will continue trying, as achieving this relationship means alot to me, even if she has gone to the arms of another person, she'll always, and i DO mean ALWAYS have a place in my heart.

anyway,

enough of my freakin bullshit for one night, i think im turning all yellow and mellow(It rhymes!). guess i'll end this off with a phrase a man once said, here goes...

" 你能选着爱我或不爱我，可是我只能选着爱你或更爱你。。。 "

corny shit right? i think im suffering from an overdose of teh-cino. forgive me.

Weekly juice !

= my speakers sing [silence.] =

it's been a hectic week. finally i got the chance to take 1 day of leave. worse thing is, i could'nt find anyone to accompany poor me. all my acquaintances were busy... went back to my office to finish off some unsettled business and i got stuck there till 2-3am? geez. i seriously need a life...

meet up with lingyi n jacob a few days back. been awhile since i last saw her... heh i must say, she still looks the same as before. if not, better...? lolx. went to sing song and she sings pretty well i must say. sadly, theres something wrong with my voice eversince the op. speech wise, i still sound the same. singing wise, i sound quite different... not as before. damn, i gotta do something about it.

anyway,

went out with mao and hehehe di yesterday night. surprisingly, she agreed to go sing-a-long with us. enjoyed myself pretty much and we actually did a 90% successful rendition of 屋顶.
:-D suffering from a very very bad headache now... not enough sleep? not enough food? i don't know man... hopefully by the time i work tomorrow, it'll be long gone...

anyway,

i've just uploaded a couple of pics n in random order, here they are...........


Amao's new ride ! (actually it belongs to his father. he's still goin for his practicals !) At least i got to drive it ! :D


This has got to be the coolest ashtray i've seen so far.


How often do you see a prayin mantis up close? lol.


Mr Stikfast self pleasuring. I love those joints.

Jingle balls is around the corner.

= mtv is singing [Naughty By Nature - Hip Hop Hooray] =

... it's nearly that time of the year again. i'm still plagued by my issues with life. my gd fren's been warded for den-freakin-gue fever.

mel's been warded for dengue. not really the kinda news i wana hear. anyway, dropped by east shore for a visit after i knocked off earlier. luckily the dumb guard allowed us in. well, take care and godspeed to ur recovery mel ! i'll b waiting to drink together again !

anyway,

just realised how boring a person i actually am. i've lost the ability to communicate. i prefer silence now rather then a chatty conversation. unless the topic really interests me. hate it man. 1 of my new year resolutions is definately gonna be... "be a better person for 2k5". A wise man once said, "Maturity begins when your concern for someone is more then your concern for yourself." how true, how true. i'll try, i'll try to be a better person.

just finished supper with mady n jacob. horrible horrible roti john. but... i hereby declare the kopitiam drink for 2k4 is... *very loud drumroll* TEH-CINO. a wicked mixture of teh and alot of condense milk. very very sinful. song of the year would be "Tra-La-La" by ......... Gunther and the Sunshine girls ! (i know its a little too early for this. pls forgive me.[i'll try to upload more pics. im running pic-less])

anyway,

i'll post a moments of 2k4 blog for me soon before the new year. meanwhile, its mahjong saturday and drinkin friday. any takers? feel free to leave a msg on ma tag-shit or just a simple sms. omg. i think i see dolly parton on tv. gotta go puke some.

Mahjong + Chivas !

= my speakers sing [Jay Chou - Jie Kou] =

it's been a while since i last updated my blog, eversince that incident whereby the hungry blog decided to eat up a long post of mine. didn't really want to come in any contact with any blog...

anyway,

Visited Caesars last sat with amao and surprisingly, 2 of my other colleagues wanted in as well. was the usual crowd on a football night... the bunch of soccer fanatics betting with the bartender over a couple of jugs. everyone seemed to be so engrossed in the match altogether. ok, to the main point of the night. so there i was, sippin my heineken with amao for around an hr or so, when my colleague called me. i initially thought only 2 were joining us. turned out that 4 came. 1 totally unknown to me. 2 of them actually said that they were gonna go have some teh over alcohol. well, what can i say. they're muslims. rofl.

anyway,

so there we were sitting at caesars when my colleague mentioned that it was a tad too boring for him at that place. (think mat rock chiongster) well, we looked around and saw that beavers, directly opposite from caesars nx to 7-11 were blasting away music and it got my fren hooked. so we sua-ed to beavers where i introduced him to the wonderful world of hoegaarden. ½ a pint and he was hooked. but what happened after that totally changed my view of him. after 1 pint of hoegaarden, he looked as if he wasn't gonna make it. he then went to the loo and i asked his fren, "hm. this is the first time i ask him out, how much can he take every time he drinks?" his friend replied with a smirk. i gasped. i knew trouble was coming and boy was i right. came out of the toilet lookin like a piece of roadkill. bloodshot eyes, swaying body and slur speech. started to blabber mountains of cock with practically everyone who walked past him. it was during that moment that he wanted to dance in the middle of the street after a dare by me and a waitress from the place asked him to go in and dance on the bartop !

a short moment later, i found all of us inside the pub and 1 on top of the bartop. the 3 of us who were firmly rooted to the floor couldnt help but stare in astonishment and had cramps in our mouth due to laughin too much. u couldnt possibly imagine how 1 man can singlehandedly make a place with less then 10 customers so happening. after 4 mins of wild dancing, i found him dancing not to 1 but 3 ladies on the bartop ! apparently they got called in by the waitress. after that 10mins of hot dancing, my fren there took his first puke in the toilet. after that he started more cock talking. the waitress seemed to be terrified abit by him. u cannot imagine how much nonsense this guy can blabber once he's drunk.

anyway,

left the place soon after and he said that he still needed more. (did i mention he took a total of 2 pints of hoegaarden and 1 and 1/3 pints of heineken) so off he went to 7-11 to buy the arguably 1 of the most horrible alcoholic drink, long island. ew. but the funny thing was he tried to order thousand island from the cashier. he was like "auntie ! got thousand island or not? i very thirsty !" the cashier was stunned. we were stunned. he found it, bought it, and discovered his mistake. "eh malu sia..." that was what he had to say. (did i mention he puked a total of 3 times in the toilet of beavers, chokin their basin.) after 2 bottles more of long-island, i found him tryin to dance in the middle of the street and puking by the drainage. luckily i went over to check on him, he nearly fell in his own puddle of vomitus ! dragged him to a coffeeshop near to kallang and he knocked out there. couldnt even situp straight. went home and slept at his void deck for another ½hr or so with his fren. thank god for his fren. rofl. so that ends his adventure, but he promised the waitress that he would be back this friday night. oh boy. i cant wait.

anyway,

about the topic... yesterday night was mahjong-cum-drinkin night for me. enjoyed a game of mahjong and drinkin away to gib's chivas. free drinks ! lost $5 ! i can only have the alcohol to blame. was abit dead after the 10th glass? i can only remember that 1/3 of his newly opened bottle was gone thanks to me. thankfully, jacob was there to meet me for supper, couldnt really remember whether i had finished my teh-cino at simpang. only remembered that i fell asleep 90% of the time during the whole supper. so i made it home safely and am waiting for another session comin very soon.

so i end off this blog still feelin abit queasy over the leftover chivas in my tummy. gonna go out now and accompany my sis to purchase some brushes?! i'll leave that for another blog.