Poof !

= my speakers sing [S.H.E. - 爱来过] = & = i'm feeling... [xtremely tired.] =

And so it is... Club Instinct is no more ~ after 2 years of ktv pubbing... the place has wound down... well... as they say, all good things come to an end. it's got to end some day... sad that it's so soon... we did enjoy ourselves during the last few nights there, turns out my future bro-in-law knows a regular there yet again. he never ceases to amaze me with his social circle. rofl?

Anyway,

back to the normal programs i guess... shanghaijazz... beavers... or a new ktv place? hm... i ponder... ladies & gentlemen, pls gimmie a holla if drinks are on your mind... heh.

It's another day...

= my speakers sing [SHE - 爱来过] = & = i'm feeling... [tired.] =

Club Instinct is going to close down ! dear all, if you wanna meet me for a drink, pls inform me ASAP ! deadline 24th may ! afterwhich... i dont know where else to go already. rofl?

Blog update?

= my speakers sing [S.H.E - 你最近还好吗] = & = i'm feeling... [empty.] =

hm... since I had the spare time, decided to upgrade my blog's template... burned a couple of hours after watching 斗牛, 要不要. quite a nice show, found that the Mike Hes acting has improved since 恶魔在身边. Hebe's acting surprised me too ! If ya got the time... go watch thanks ! rofl.

Anyway,

3 months and counting... before i really consider the fact of tendering my resignation. cant believe time really really flies when you're having fun... with a blink of the eye... i've 80% redeemed my wretched soul that was once sold... now the only problem that's left is to find a new job ! i certainly hope i can find a suitable job to take me out of this cursed life i'm leading... and there's also grandpops being warded and waiting for the grim reaper... zzz. so many things to worry about... so little time... maybe this is my way of escaping from all of it... hiding in my room everytime i'm home... all holed up... doing nothing but senseless things to wile away my time... cant help but feel what it would be like to be living in those taiwanese drama serial settings... rofl... the life-in-the-drama mood is here again... till then... all i can do is to pass my days one at a time...

lululu

= my speakers sing [李圣杰 - 擦肩而过] = & = i'm feeling... [hollow.] =

李圣杰 - 擦肩而过

我爱着谁
爱到我有点醉
告诉我你是谁
能够把我让我变不对
你不会累
但我却爱你爱得好累
从没有为了谁
不顾安危付出一切
站在这平衡点
我还是觉得有点危险
或许是看不见
只能够靠感觉
他不会是个好男人
也不会是个好情人
你对我说我们只是擦肩而过
好的男人有那么多
少了他的日子也能过
我不会再让你寂寞
也不会让你更难过
你听我说要好好学着去生活
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔陪你度过

你听我说
你不要这么做
你不要看着我
说你已经知道怎么做
你很难受
我愿意陪你一起承受
只要你不怕痛
再多坎坷我都陪你走
站在这平衡点
我还是觉得有点危险
或许是看不见
只能够靠感觉
他不会是个好男人
也不会是个好情人
你对我说我们只是擦肩而过
好的男人有那么多
少了他的日子也能过
我不会再让你寂寞
也不会让你更难过
你听我说要好好学着去生活
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔陪你度过
他不会是个好男人
也不会是个好情人
你对我说我们只是擦肩而过
好的男人有那么多
少了他的日子也能过
我不会再让你寂寞
也不会让你更难过
你听我说要好好学着去生活
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔陪你度过
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔陪你度过

heard this song while at a ktv the other day. been missing out on newly released songs... must update myself man ! for those whom have heard me sing? do i sound nasal? zzz

is it just me or are alot of my friends not blogging anymore? wtf. all the links seem dead. cb... can all ya gimmie a holler on your new blog if you have any?!

Pong piang piak. WOOOOOOOO !

= my speakers sing [nothing.] = & = i'm feeling... [drowsy.] =

Farewell natch. Thanks for the great 30 years.

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO !

Anyway,

"I light tungsten."

rofl.

1, Thanks You. 2, Thank Yous. 3, Thank You.

= my speakers sing [Li Sheng Jie - Hen Xiang Shuo] = & = i'm feeling... [spaced out.] =

Ahh ~ so much have happened within the last few days... wanna lose myself also no chance.

Anyway, big shoutout to ah fat for the sms. Thanks YO ! I'll be alright ! :-D

I feel like screaming out loud to the world. But i can't.

At least i managed to let some steam off. Thanks for listening. :-D

Job lobangs. I need job lobangs. Self set deadline reaching soon. Still. No. Progress. Help.

All alone... in my house... thinking about whats to happen in the future... lululu...

Am i to succumb to pressure and stress? rofl. stay tuned to find out !

oh. what has happened?

= my speakers sing [nothing] = & = i'm feeling... [useless] =

within the start of the new year, i find my life in a downward spiral. my mother's condition has worsened, i've had to make a very difficult decision and there's still nothing on my mind for a new job. what else can go wrong, i do not know.

i guess my blog's name "The" moments really fit the situation right now. i'm a "A" moment that i would probably remember for the rest of my life...

regrets... i have plenty. time to forget? plenty of time. drink eat sleep work. 4 words i get by these days. crap, i know. at least i have something to get my mind off other things. i actually had thought of a shitload to write while tossing and turning in my bed last night... well... as they say, what comes before sleep, disappears the next morning. well, actually i'm the one who says that. rofl?

i don't know how long more can i last... before i eventually give up on myself. thats something i don't really wanna see happen. losing myself... god knows what i'll end up like. struggling and striving to keep my sane state of mind. i can't lose myself... no matter what happens...

i
cannot..
lose..
myself.

...

= my speakers sing [nothing.] = & = i'm feeling... [empty.] =

...

After one year and 28 days...

It.

is.

over.

Too many things to be said...

Better off to be left unsaid.

Too many grumbles to make...

It's better not to brood over it.

Too much happiness to be left behind...

Too much unhappiness to endure.

Too many problems...

Too little solutions.

I guess... It's best that we move on... and look forward to what life has in store for us.

I sincerely wish you all the best.

May you find true happiness at the corner ahead...

So long and good bye.

25... and counting...

= my speakers sing [nothing] = & = i'm feeling... [extremely fatigued] =

Hi all.... it's been a freaking long time eh?
As usual... so many things... so little time...

More recent updates...
- I'm a fan of Granado Espada Check. It. Out.
- I just received a Limited Edition Boxset as a pressie from mah sis. *ETS population 616 of 9999 =D
- Received a Man Utd 3rd Kit(Black) and 1 year worth of G.E. subscription from mah girl.
- Just spent one of the most quietest bdays ever at George's. LOL.
- Changed a new phone... SamSung U700 ! ( My D820 died on me :~ )
- Changed a new monitor SamSung SyncMaster 932B+
- Bought a 4GB memory stick pro duo for me psp
- Got gobbie hooked on G.E. as well.
- Still failing my ippt on a regular basis. zzz.

hahaha seems like my world is revolving around G.E. at the moment... so many things to say...
so little time!

LOL. Since this is like a quickie update... I'll end off here since I'm gonna go explore mah boxset... pictures coming soon ! =D

Oh ya, anyone by any chance G.E.-ing at the moment... I'm at Pachelbel server, IGN : Cows (What else? LOL)

R.I.P. Benoit

= my speakers sing [nothing.] = & = i'm feeling... [shocked.] =

R.I.P. CHRIS BENOIT
The rabid wolverine. The crippler crossface lives no more... Latest news from www.wwe.com, Chris Benoit and family found dead inside their home. Investigations ongoing.

First off, Eddie Guerrero. Now this... though I've stopped following wrestling recently, it's still a very very sad piece of news to see one of the most celebrated stars of the show pass on... He'll be forever remembered by his professionalism, warmness and superb technical skills in the ring...

Anyway,

But awhile since I last blogged cos of a tiny incident due to the last entry I posted... But it's all good now and you can be sure that my posts will still come... albeit longer then usual. No time la dey... kk updates about me in point form once again !

• Just sold off my old PS2 @ Cash convertors for $60/- as the lens were expiring and there's no point in changing the lens since they'll probably be re-conditioned ones.
• Bought a new slim PS2. Currently in the stages of resolving some issues about it. (USB ports. Can anyone get the USB ports of the new PS2 to work? Pls let me know.)
• Just injured my leg not long ago due to soccer resulting in constant strain between bones to cause and infection. (Conclusion: Injured Foot + Osepath = Very ouch.)
• Passport is now extended to 2015. (Trips anyone? :-D)
• Awaiting PS3 price to drop and hopefully a modded version.

Thats roughly about it... still feeling very stoned and steamed since I had only like 2hrs of sleep for the past 24hrs? I guess I'll go lie down somemore... rofl?

With the blink of the eye... mid year is approaching.

= my speakers sing [nothing.] = & = i'm feeling... [very depressed. very sad. very painful.] =

Manchester United won the Premiership.

I got promoted.

I'm not happy.

My lovelife's met a standstill.

I guess the bits and pieces piled up finally met its limit.

I need to clear my mind.

No alcohol required.

Just me. alone... by myself...

Yikes ! Too long too long...

= my speakers sing [Sounds of nothingness] = & = i'm feeling... [full, tired & dirtay] =

You know it's been too long since you've blogged when you start to forget what's your userid and password. Needless to say the trick question thats supposed to help you with the password. I guess it's really a trick question cos you'll probably be cursing and swearing as to why when you first signed up, you decided to enter something totally non-generic and somewhat absurd and nonsensical as user information. LOL?

Anyway,

It's seems like I've been neglecting too much of my friends lately. So much for "I'll definately make time for meeting up with the gang" when the gang's only activity is binge drinking and your significant other's absolute detest is drinking. *BAM* Deadend. Insert Coin also cannot continue. LPPL. You get the drift.

I can't bear to see July approaching as the ban for "No-Smoking" in entertainment outlets start. Only left with a couple of months more. So... toast up, cheers out loud and gulp the dang thing in one shot. And smoke alot thereafter. You won't get to do it come July...

Anyway,

Yay ! Manchester United won 3 - 2 ! I practically gave up watching the match after Kaka' equalized and gave them the lead in the first half. Point being Man Utd's defense was "a total idiocy" and I had to work morning shift a couple of hours later. Luckily in the morning I was greeted by a wonderful news of Rooney's double in the second half. Dang, should have stayed up to watch... Nevermind, there's still the Qiao Si(Knock dead) Vs Li Eh Por(Your cloth) tonight and I intend to finish the entire game before retiring to bed...

Speaking of late nights... I just recovered from a bout of flululu and fever. 4 months since my last throat infection which always causes the previous mentioned symptoms... Just started to recover and now here I am spending late nights again... ROFL?

Speaking of which... the match should be around the corner... let me go prepare for it... and hope cheysai gets whacked !

Did I mention I'm mapling... look for me in the 4th world...

Hey Ho, wtf, it's been so long ! too long...

= my speakers sing [nothing.] = & = i'm feeling... [tired.] =

Whoa. Has it been that long? weekly updates turning into monthly ones... I must apologize for those friends whom make it a point to check my blog once in awhile... actually no need to check my blog for my rants la... msg me can find out already what. ROFL?

Anyway,

Been really busy the past 3 months... with what else? my significant other half lo... It really hasn't been a bed of roses... but then again, we're trying hard to work it out... blah blah blah...

Did I mention that I have a set of unique black mahjong tiles? ~.~ Not cheap though... but very very the nice. So far hasn't let me down yet... been good to me... LOL. Will try to post pictures next time round...

Anyway,

Just been to huat's pre-bday chalet... Was chatting with mel and was having the notion of shutting down my blog... since it's not being updated as often as it used to be... But when I logged into Blogger... I was reminded of the past urges to blog and vent frustrastion... blogged to whine... blogged about happy stuff... Maybe I'll just keep the blog for awhile more... Just awhile more... lol... besides, it's the only other avenue that I have some of my private freedom... uninterrupted by no one else... hee !

Life is never a bed of roses. Even if there are... they'd be covered in shit.

= my speakers sing [nothing.] = & = i'm feeling... [pissed.] =

Dong Tong a-long-tong chang chang chang. Chinese New Year is over liao. It's been another long month since my last post... So what has the infamous cow been doing? Nothing much... idling here, moo-ing there... been drinking less though... and less of meet ups with mao n the gang... cos of what you might ask? Cos of my new found hobby called, girlfriend lo.

Qn: "Aren't you supposed to be living in bliss now?"

Ans: "Am I? I don't know... one moment we're happy yakking, the next we're in a cold war..."

The frequency is increasing throughout the past few weeks... tensions are running high... So much for the promise of telling each other about each other's unhappiness... Pui. Just feel like losing it sometime... No point yakking online so much... then again, when I have a post, it's usually a whining one. So there you go... rofl.

Anyway,

And for all those whom are concerned, cow is intending to resign come june... any job lobangs for milkless cow? :-D

It's been a long long month...

= my speakers sing [nothing.] = & = i'm feeling... [sickish.] =

My mind's in a whirl. This month seemed like a dream... is it going to end soon? I shudder at the mere thought... I know negativity is also bad... but I can't help it... I've been there, done that before... and I guess no one really wants to experience shit like that for a second time running... Bah... I shouldn't start to complain when everything's going well...

Anyway,

Past all those negative thoughts, I had a barrel of fun yesterday celebrating the first month of us... A lomantic dinner at Fisherman's Village under the stars... and she made me realise it was the first time we were out together alone... every other time there was bound to be someone else... be it mao or jo... roflmao. I'm such an insensitive moron. At least we had fun... a night to remember... lol...

Everything seems so new to me... Not really used to the idea of waking up next morning only to see someone else lying next to you... or rather, not used to the fact that someone is lying next to you when you're going to sleep... Afterall, it has been so long since I've been sleeping alone on my single sized bed... I guess I could use some adjusting to... an extra toothbrush... storage space for her clothes in my wardrobe... space on my tables for her barang barang... does this constitute to cohabiting? lol...

well...

I don't dare to ponder that far off... just taking a step at a time... who knows... what till happen in the future... no guarantees... lol?

It's the new year ~ !

= my speakers sing [Nothing.] = & = i'm feeling... [Super duper elated.] =

Happy 2007 to one and all. A couple of days late... but still should be able to make it la ah... With a blink of the eye, 365 days have passed us within a flash. I bet there were many events in 2006 that left some of us bewildered, depressed, happy, optimistic, pessimistic... blah blah blah. Well, it certainly was eventful for me... work wise, I guess the future doesn't seem to look that bleak anymore... and the end of 2006 spells that I've got only ½ a year left on my current employment's contract! Yippie?! Love wise... it was sure as hell a traumatic experience... I got dumped twice. First being a totally weird and surprising outcome... Second... it's been a hell of a roller coaster ride. I literally dropped to the bottomest of the bottoms... but by a stroke of luck + a dash of hope + a lil bit of miracle... I'm suddenly lifted and I'm feeling on top of da world baby ! :-D~~

Anyway,

Did I mention that I've just bought for myself a 27" SamSung LCD TV? :-D~ It's sortta a xmas cum bonus pressie for myself... Well, to reward myself for the hard work I've done throughout 06. ROFLMAO. Ok la. No one got me any xmas presents. So I had to buy a freaking TV for myself to make me feel better. LOL. Really, I've always wanted an LCD TV. Now I've made my dream a reality... next stop? a vroom vroom perhaps? hahahaha...

There's been some changes in my life for the past week or so... All I can say is... I haven't felt this freaking good ever. A new TV, a new ray of light in life, what else more could a man ask for...

I've always believed in Karma. So I hope that this time round... it's really the good I've given thats coming back. Till I have more to reveal further, good luck, best wishes and stay healthy in 2007!

Wow?

= my TV sings [C.Ronaldo kicking Wigan's arse.] = & = i'm feeling... [elated...] =

So much has happened in the past 2 weeks or so... I did something really stupid with those new machines that print out your phone-pics via bluetooth or memory card. Basically I got my card stuck in the freaking machine and I freaked out. But I managed to get my card out at the end of the day... (minus some "genuine" help rendered by the technical staff).

And...

I guess my christmas this year was spent in the most un-exciting way. I got sick the day before eve of xmas, high fever and all. So the next logical thing to do was to ground myself. Thus, a grounded xmas. But... I gotta admit... it was the damn best xmas I ever had in my entire life. (No, I didn't get laid.) ROFL. "Tis this season to be jolly, fa la la la la la la la la..."

Anyway,

Also in the headlines.

Cow has a cow-dette !

:-D

In case of anyone whom doesn't understand... Cow is no longer available !

Bitch post.

= my speakers sing [Nothing.] = & = i'm feeling... [Stupefied.] =

Arse-nal 1 - Char Si 1

Wuhahahaha Man Utd 8 pts clear ~~~

Psst, FYI, this cow has been a Man Utd fan since 1996.

A decade liao wor.

I shan't go back to proving myself since I've not been following much in the recent years... But I do know the Bugsy Babes to the Pallister, Bruce, McClair, Cantona era blah blah blah...

Anyway,

This entry is not supposed to be based on soccer. I just saw something off the net that blew my mind. I really cannot believe it lor. Shell shocked, then stupefied(still am), then amazingly... it felt god damn funny ! Seriously, all I can say is...

What the fuck? I give up la nah beh chee bye. ROFLMAO. (+alot of laughs)

I think I've changed in a way... but I also think that I've never remained so firm about some things... I guess, 狗改不了吃屎。 LOL.

My heart's open with warmth but I sense hidden agendas...

Am I changed for the better...


or for the worst...

Ouch.

= my speakers sing [方力申 - 好心好报] = & = i'm feeling... [in alot of pain.] =

I played soccer for 5 mins.

I limped off the pitch.

There's a bruise the size of a ba zhang on my left shin.

I'm worried that I'll get a hairline fracture.

I'm off to the hospital.

Lipeats.

= my speakers sing [Liu Jia Liang - 你到底爱谁] = & = i'm feeling... [somber.]=

As requested by the aspiring journalist and for the benefit of those who can't read chinese for nuts... Here's the loosely translated version of my previous post. Don't blame me for the bad translation. rofl...

Our love

Love tortures.

Hurts people to the extreme, drives them to insanity, have regrets for life, go crazy, even killing... However, the person torturing yourself is not the other party, but yourself.

I've given so much for you, you just turned and left, never once looked back, so ruthless you were... your heartlessness left me with so much pain.
Pain is because I expected something in return for all that I've given.

One sided love or falling in love with those already in love or those with marriage engagements will lead to pain... Pain because you want to get a confirmation from the other party but cannot. Because I do not know how to give unconditional love, that is why I only wish to possess.

Betrayed by love, I'm a victim. You shouldn't have been so callous with love, not sparing a thought for my feelings. I suffer in pain, because you cannot meet my expectation of love.

But, if I really do love you, truly love you, I would have been able to give willingly; if it was willingly, I wouldn't have bothered with the returns, and would have gone from your perspective. Your friendship, heartlessness, attitude and what nots would not have affected my love towards you. Because what I love is you, not your returns.

Some people are used to betraying, some people use feelings for revenge, some people use feelings for being a backup... As long as both parties are satisfied with each other's expectations of love, even the law can't do anything about it.

In the world of love, there is no logic, no rules, no stated laws, even no morals. Those taking part in this game called love must understand that fully, then they will be able to train a heart of steel that isn't easily defeated.

If you cannot give unconditional love, you can only leave, leave to find someone who fits your expectation of love as well as theirs, if you cannot meet up with the other person's expectations, even if you skin their scalps, chain them up, you're just forcing them to live with your own expectation of love. Is that compulsively possessive, not willingly to give up or real love?

Afterall, love is nothing but a transactional investment. Your coldness, disloyalty, heartlessness caused me to end up being a bankrupt. Any investment without returns is a very stupid thing to do.

Love experts often advise people not to be too caught up with love and surrender everything, you must find someone suitable for yourself. Note, it's suitable. Not necessarily love. Because even the love experts also know that there are not many people who truly understands love.

Our bodies, perspectives and values are of utmost importance. What we think about the most is not what the other party is feeling, but only what we ourselves are thinking.

Love tortures, because we do not understand love.

Matter of fact is that...

Even if we do fall in love with each other,

The person we love the most is ourself.


Wa lan eh... I think I did quite a bad job there. Got a couple of phrases which I don't really know how to translate.

Anyway

The general idea is there. Try to digest? rofl....