Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Nasty.

= my speakers sing [Nothing.] = & = i'm feeling... [Bored.] =

Just woke up from a nasty nap some ten minutes back.

Why nasty you might ask? Isn't napping always a good thing?

I had a dream... Nasty.

I dreamt that... I met her at the usual coffeeshop where we'd settle our dinners ! She was still dressed in those skimpy outfits of hers... with an abnormal over-tan. Turned out she was just there to tell me about how nice her current beau is... Into car parts business(exhausts?)... rich guy... I felt so disgusted I woke up !

But when I woke up...

I felt like crap.

Don't get me wrong, it's not as though I'm feeling so sad and all... It's just that... Why the hell would I even dream about her now?

I ponder.
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Anyway,

New job searching still to no avail. I better pull up my socks and settle into a job fast !!! Need to see $ coming in soon ! Too lazy to reply to people's questions of

"Have you found a job yet?",
"Have you tried job agencies?",
"Have you tried lowering your standards?",
"Aiyoh, why aren't you still working?",
"You need to find a job fast you know, now recession leh..."

I KNOW LA.
I'M NOT STUPID OKAY.
I'M OLD ENOUGH TO KNOW WHAT WEIGHS HOW MUCH AND WHAT LIFE IS ABOUT.

*Ahem. Pardon my outburst. Thanks for the concern. I still live by one phrase,

"There are no stupid questions, only stupid people."

Saturday, March 21, 2009

Sick.

= my speakers sing [Nothing.] = & = i'm feeling... [Like crap.] =

Fug. Sick yet again. Camped at home on friday. Looks like gonna be the same for saturday as well.

Insomnia setting in. Couldn't really get some good rest for the past 2 weeks or so.

Why?

I do not know. Maybe cause I'm troubled.

Troubled about what? I do not know.

I've tons to think about. Especially when my future's at stake.

I don't know what the hell I'm doing nowadays too. I must be getting too crappy cause sometimes I can't even stand the face I see in the mirror.

Damn I need to recover fast.

Damn I need more booze.

P/S: I'm on youtube! No thanks to that friggin kukubird ivan. zzz....






Of all songs why must he record these 2... zzz. I sincerely apologize for the lameass dumb V handsigns. Thats the effect of too much beer. ...

Thursday, March 05, 2009

Emptiness. Personified.

= my speakers sing [sounds from HBO.] = & = i'm feeling... [alone in the dark.] =

300am. Alone staring at the walls.

400am. Still staring at the walls.

500am. Switched on HBO. Watched "Without Limits". Some show about Steve Prefontaine.

700am. Still not sleepy. Wide awake. Decides to blog abit. "Catch and Release" in on HBO. How apt.

Normally I'd be sipping my coffee while waiting for your "Home" messages.

No appetite.

Moodless.

Empty.

Just... empty.

Wednesday, March 04, 2009

04 March 2009.

= my speakers sing [nothing.] = & = i'm feeling... [like FUCK.] =

It's another definative moment of my life. 我又单身了!

Too many things to consider.. In the long run... I can only just say, I am sorry.

我不知道为什么会变成这样...
但太多太多事情让我担心和烦恼...
我愿本是以为我们可以走下去...
一起走下去, 但是她始终是你和我之间的障碍...
我爱你. 但那是不够的.
你我之间的不同和不愉快不是一句简单的我爱你就可以解决的.
人是始终是自私的.
你也有说过以你现在的处境, 跟我在一起, 是不是在拖累我.
可能是刚开始的时候你骗了我, 我还是耿耿于怀...
我一直以来都不喜欢有人骗我.
何况是你还变本加厉的唆使你的同事们一起来敷衍我...
我曾觉得我是一个笨蛋,白痴,头脑智商有问题的人.
可是我还是要尝试跟你在一起...
因为我感受得到你给与我的爱和关怀是真的.
当你问我的时候,我曾想过...


“我这样的骗你... 你能接受吗... 你会觉得我在拖累你吗?”

我是有想过...
也曾经尝试过...
可是...
我只能说, 对不起, 我办不到.
我不是你心中的男人.
我也不是一个好男人.
我其实在寻找的是一个简简单单的爱情.
我们现在的处境实在是太乱了.

可能一开始我就应该知道是这样的结果.

对不起, 我不应该在浪费你的时间...
我希望你能找到比我更爱你的人...
我知道一定会有比我更爱你的人...

我只想说声, 对不起.




Wednesday, December 31, 2008

T - 14 hours !

= my speakers sing [方大同 - 爱爱爱] = & = i'm feeling... [lethargic yet energetic.] =

Buhbye 2008 ! Helloooooo 2009 !
It's been a rough year... with a couple of life defining moments... Still, this would be a year to forget. I realised I've been slacking for almost coming to 4 months odd now... Dang time flies when you're having fun... Well... Not that fun when you see your bank account take a sky dive. Rofl?

New job ! Here I come !
New life ! Here I come !
New love ! Here I come !
More money ! Here I come !

2009 ! Here I come !!!

Monday, December 22, 2008

Counting down...

= my speakers sing [Sounds from 不良笑花] = & = i'm feeling... [tired to the max.] =

8 more days and counting...

To a new year,

to a new love,

to a new job,

to a new life,

to vivifying myself !


Monday, December 08, 2008

End of 2008. Jobless still !

= my speakers sing [sounds of stwack!] = & = i'm feeling... [tired.] =

Dang. Pretty much the same old same old for the past 3 months? Jobless. Still. Ain't doing what I initially planned. It's still good. For the time being.

Chances of me landing a job before Xmas, 0.

Anyway,

I shall set a new year resolution to look for a job ASAP. That's if someone decides to offer me a lobang? Hm...... lols. Haven't really rummaged through classifieds yet though...(lazy) I really need to pull my socks up and find mahself a job soon !

I need a direction in life.

Thursday, October 16, 2008

We came, we drank, they closed. wtf?!

= my speakers sing [Sweet sounds of silence.] = & = i'm feeling... [Freaking tired!] =

After 3 months of drinking... Graxs closed down on Sat. Wtf? another of my drinking places downed. Am I a pubbing jinx or... rofl. Tentatively back to being a wandering spirit till we find another spot. Recce starts from today! or so I hope. rofl. Been to George's for my last two drinking sessions with the 2 dumbdumbs, 林子祥(LOL) n her. To my surprise, she actually doesn't dislike George's ! Happening ! ^.^

Till another drinking hole,
Till another song,
Till I have no more $.

Drink up !

Sidenote: I could really use a job. My life has taken a 180° change ! for the better? or the worse... only time can tell...




Wednesday, October 08, 2008

Happy Crappy Happy.

= my speakers sing [Some weird song from youtube] = & = i'm feeling... [extremely fucking tired.] =

Eyebags.

Beer.

Tiredness.

Martell.

Empty bank accounts.

Chivas.

New found love.

Happy 26.

Friday, September 12, 2008

It's another month.

= my speakers sing [Nothing.] = & = i'm feeling... [Excruciatingly tired.] =

It's another job-less month. I think I should really try out wama's car garage lobang. Bank's falling mighty low might fast... rofl.

Btw, I'm hitched. After one year of solo-army. I found another one. Call it my fate. But what's bound to come will come. And it's here yet again. Roller coaster emotional ride again? I do not know. All I know is... be happy. While it lasts. =D


Sunday, August 17, 2008

YAY ! MOP !

= my speakers sing [nothing.] = & = i'm feeling... [reasonably pissed.] =

MOP !

Member
Of
Public !

Yay?

Monday, August 11, 2008

Ok. The stage is set. My life is coming back to me again.

= my speakers sing [Nothing.] = & = i'm feeling... [Blank.] =

3 More days. Just three more. I will be ! normal again ! Then again... What will I do now?

(?.?)

Oh yea... I'm a part time car salesman too. (=.=)

Just spent this weekend stoning at home. Caught the damn flu bug from Jo and I'm having sorethroat as well. Ugh. Sad. Looking for a fresh day tomorrow ! Gotta leave home and take a walk somewhere ! Anyone looking to join me to walk off the monday blues? :-D

Sidenote: Wa lao... From an original trip to Taiwan, downgraded to Thailand... then Phuket... now Batam?! Wtf?



Tuesday, August 05, 2008

Lobang Alert !

= my speakers sing [苏永康 - 拥抱] = & = i'm feeling... [lethargic.] =

9 more days to final goodbye. Can't wait.

Anyway, dear friends... dear all... If anyone of you are looking for a new handphone change, feel free to come and look for me. Am helping a friend with his handphone business. Will give best deals in town !

What I need are... the model and the lowest pricing you can find outside. Trade ins are available based on handset condition. Memory cards are available as well. All models are first hand with warranty. No worries there. PlayStationPortables, PlayStation3s, Nintendo DualScreens are available as well... Registered company with friendly and reliable services. Just gimmie a holla on what you need... I'll try to get back to you ASAP ! :-D

Monday, July 21, 2008

Game Set and Match.

= my speakers sing [nothing.] = & = i'm feeling... [pissed still.] =

Final stretch already and they are still screwing with me. What is this man... I met with some problems at work during my resignation and I came up with this analogy to describe it...

Imagine you're famished. Haven't eaten in days. You walked into this burger joint. There you saw only 1 counter serving. Around 10 people are queueing. You are so hungry you decided to cut the queue by walking behind the 5th person. When it's your turn, you tell the counter staff...

Moo: "Can I have an XX meal please."

Staff: *Visibly pissed at you jumping queue. "Okay, that'll be $10."

A little extra then what you would normally pay, but what the heck, you're famished. So, order placed and the staff decides to let you in on somemore info.

Staff: "I'm sorry, as our kitchen is severely understaffed, I'm thinking you'll need around 15mins for your order to be processed."

Moo: "Fine." *Famished, remember?

So you wait. Guess what. The bomb gets dropped 2mins before your waiting time is up.

Staff: "I'm sorry, you will have to pay an extra $5 for your meal whilst waiting as we are still severely short on staff."

Moo: "Wtf? I'll pay for whatever shit. Just get me my meal already !"

Staff: "Oh ya, you'll have to wait for another 30mins."

Moo: "..."

That probably sums up my current predicament. Fair? Yes? No?

Was browsing through dictionary.com and guess what? Word of the day reads, "Insensate".
ROFL. Very apt no?

Sidenote: GTA4 ROCKS.

Monday, July 14, 2008

Operation FREEDOM Phase 2 + sudden activation !

= my speakers sing [933 live streaming] = & = i'm feeling... [H.A.P.P.Y] =

woot ! mail sent ! ½ considered tendered? A sense of relief beckons... Alot of my colleagues are still thinking that I wont resign. wtf? whatever ! Phase 2 to commence soon~ Can't wait ! :D

Anyway,

* Ding Ding Ding ! * Sudden Activation !

I cannot describe the feeling inside me... When I first cast my eyes on you... I knew you were the one. The one to keep me company... the one to make me happy... the one who wont talk back to me or make me angry... well maybe sometimes.

BUT STILL.

You are...
truly...
the one.

Pictures speak a thousand words...













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LOL ! I BOUGHT MYSELF A PS 3 !!!

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The shit inside the box...

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Close up of the highly anticipated GTA4. :DD

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The real thang?


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Silver Satin... Omg So FRESH ! :DD

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The insides of GTA4...

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Booted Up... *Slurp*

Had abit of problems connecting to the internet... Wasted like 4-5hrs to get the wireless working... Shoutout to fats for lending his ear and helping out ! Big thanks Yo ! After I managed to establish a connection...

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Tada ! Soccernet ! HDMI ROXOR !

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Final shot of it's glorious cover...

Oh ya... Whatever happened to good things come in pairs?
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ROFLMAO !!!

Saturday, July 12, 2008

30+hrs more... to Operation FREEDOM Step 1.

= my speakers sing [梁静如 - 给从前的爱] = & = i'm feeling... [drowsy.] =

Was crapping earlier when a sudden random thought hit me. I was never the kind of the person that will "read" somebody. I used to think I was... but when I realised sometimes when comments are passed on some people, it's totally different from what I had initially perceived. So much so to the extent that it's so uber wrong sometimes. I guess... I'm just not into reading too much into a person... too much trust? I always make out a person for what he is and why he is. Never for maybe he wants to... or he is thinking of... maybe that's why I always get freaking stepped on my head? rofl?

Do you?

Sidenote: PS3 this monday ! Tendering this monday ! So many things on monday ! for once, no monday blues ! :DD

Tuesday, July 01, 2008

It's the final countdown !

= my speakers sing [Themes from Granado Espada] = & = i'm feeling... [Spaced Out.] =

Urgh ! This Euro has got to be one of the most kelong euro's in history man. EU-Kelong-RO ! Once again, I've deposited $500 to SGPools no interest fixed deposit account. Dammit. ...

Anyway,

12 more days to the moment where I officially tell them to go fly kite. I can't wait. Now... a trip to Taiwan? or Phuket... hm...

Saturday, June 21, 2008

Wtf?

= my speakers sing [nothing.] = & = i'm feeling... [shitty.] =

Wtf? From winning abit to losing 100. Wtf is wrong with soccer betting and me. Or am I destined to lose every tourny I decide to place my dough on? My world cup's luck is back again. Since the missed jackpot on russia... 4 losses in a row. Wtf. Right. Double or nothing. 400 more to play before I throw in the towel. SGPools really know how to suck my blood. Dammit.

Extra time of Croatia's match still undergoing... I can't be bothered to watch.

Friday, June 13, 2008

Chui.

= my speakers sing [sounds of silence.] = & = i'm feeling... [mopey.] =

Boat sank yesterday. Luckily fun bets all round. Jackpot tonight !

Anyway,

Went to the PC show yesterday... as per normal, jam packed de mar. puripuriya. Nothing fancy... though I saw a 8GB memory stick 2 pro duo for like $79.90? wtf? Maybe I should really comtemplate getting a PSP slim...

Was on my way back home earlier from SGPools when a random thought just flew into my head.

" Obstinate "

I think that to a certain extent, I am considered obstinate. Isn't everyone? I just like the way things are left just the way they are. E.G. The way things are placed on my table. The way my keyboard is placed. The way my ashtray is placed. The way I put clothes in my wardrobe. The way I put cigarettes in my holder. It's very insignificant, yet I am so bothered with it. 怪胎? Perhaps. but doesn't everyone have their own peeves? Think about it... Do our own peeves irritate others? Or are they irritating ourselves? rofl?

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Euroooooooooooooooooooooooooo

= my speakers sing [nothing.] = & = i'm feeling... [perplexed.] =


The time has come.

It's time for me to take back my 900 SGPools took from me 2 years ago.

THIS IS EUROOOOO !!!

ARRGGGGGHHHHHH !!!