= my speakers sing [Five for Fighting - Something About You] =
I've been deciding on one of the biggest choices in my life so far. can i afford a car? if so, should i get 1? it's more like reaching a milestone in my life rather then showing off. afterall, it's just a mode of transport on 4 wheels. been thinking alot recently about 2nd hand or first hand... should be gettin a first hand... definately must be within my budget... lookin at the 1l 1.3 and 1.6... still got insurance, road tax, coupons, fuel, summons, maintenance blah blah blah n the list goes on. this will definately be the biggest and most important decision. dont know how u all see it but, its like, if i fail to manage this important asset(a car is always a liability, but asset sounds nicer. haha.) it'll mean i've failed a milestone in my life and the damage... i dont know, hopefully it doesnt happen, then again, i might not buy the car at all. argh, here i go again, worrying too much over-pressurizing myself. gotta get a hold on myself.
anyway,
work's been pretty much the same old. but i seem to have detected a flaw in my workin style... i think i've been rather slack recently... i tink i accidentally made 1 of my colleagues pissed ! i'll need to pull my socks up and improve my ass i suppose !
Friday, January 28, 2005
Tuesday, January 25, 2005
Exercising is in order !
= my mind is thinking of [happy thoughts~] =
hm. today(24th) was certainly a sports day. went for my office's pool tourny in the morning(i lost in the first round. did i mention my opponent represents PSA?) then some badminton action later in the afternoon. i shouldn't have tried. my hands are aching to the max now. i should do some exercising to destroy the fats and reveal the muscles... if there are any. ippt is around the corner~~~ i do not wish to fail this year ~
anyway,
been feeling good although workload is heavy... maybe because i spent a few great hrs with her? dont know how to describe but... the way she walks, talks, gestures attracts me so much. i get so often getting lost when i look in her eyes... (i wonder if she'll c this. freak im so corny sometimes i hate myself. LOL.) cant say more otherwise this will turn into a super corny blog ! i'll just move along and see what happens...
did i mention about how M1 sends inspirational quotes to me once awhile... i received another rather interesting one today...
"Men do not attract that which they want,
but that which they are... James Allen"
go figure.
hm. today(24th) was certainly a sports day. went for my office's pool tourny in the morning(i lost in the first round. did i mention my opponent represents PSA?) then some badminton action later in the afternoon. i shouldn't have tried. my hands are aching to the max now. i should do some exercising to destroy the fats and reveal the muscles... if there are any. ippt is around the corner~~~ i do not wish to fail this year ~
anyway,
been feeling good although workload is heavy... maybe because i spent a few great hrs with her? dont know how to describe but... the way she walks, talks, gestures attracts me so much. i get so often getting lost when i look in her eyes... (i wonder if she'll c this. freak im so corny sometimes i hate myself. LOL.) cant say more otherwise this will turn into a super corny blog ! i'll just move along and see what happens...
did i mention about how M1 sends inspirational quotes to me once awhile... i received another rather interesting one today...
"Men do not attract that which they want,
but that which they are... James Allen"
go figure.
Friday, January 21, 2005
friends are an important recipe in life.
= my tv screens [9 Ball! - World Summit of Pool] =
had a nice chat wif dy at siglap *bucks just now. talked about cars, driving, friends... ahh friends... friends are everywhere. you can make friends anywhere. but good friends, thats hard to find. im glad to have found my current group of kakis. although sometimes they make me wana >.<>
theres actually a very simple explainantion. if a supposedly friend of yours went to your house, he/she can open your fridge to take food or drinks, then thats considered a good friend. i mean, how many friends can go to someone's house and help themselves to the food in the fridge without asking? most people would think that it's rude... but if you're ok with it... i guess, u can claim that friend as a good one. lame right? but thats how it goes for me.
so dear friends of mine, pls consider this a thank-you-for-being-my-friend post. it's corny, i know. but still, i would like to say a huge Thank you for being there when i need ya all the most, thank you for chatting with me on msn/ma irc #, thank you for accompanying me to sing-along sessions, thank you for playing mahjong with me, thank you for drinking with me, thank you for playing pool with me, thank you for spending endless hours wandering aimlessly on the streets, thank you for being my friend. (fuck! what a tear jerker !)(btw, i really mean it. -D~)
P/S: I am currently having this mother of a pimple on the right side of my face. It's seriously pissing me off. + another irritating one is growing on the right side of my upper lip ! I resign to having an oily face. NBCB !
had a nice chat wif dy at siglap *bucks just now. talked about cars, driving, friends... ahh friends... friends are everywhere. you can make friends anywhere. but good friends, thats hard to find. im glad to have found my current group of kakis. although sometimes they make me wana >.<>
theres actually a very simple explainantion. if a supposedly friend of yours went to your house, he/she can open your fridge to take food or drinks, then thats considered a good friend. i mean, how many friends can go to someone's house and help themselves to the food in the fridge without asking? most people would think that it's rude... but if you're ok with it... i guess, u can claim that friend as a good one. lame right? but thats how it goes for me.
so dear friends of mine, pls consider this a thank-you-for-being-my-friend post. it's corny, i know. but still, i would like to say a huge Thank you for being there when i need ya all the most, thank you for chatting with me on msn/ma irc #, thank you for accompanying me to sing-along sessions, thank you for playing mahjong with me, thank you for drinking with me, thank you for playing pool with me, thank you for spending endless hours wandering aimlessly on the streets, thank you for being my friend. (fuck! what a tear jerker !)(btw, i really mean it. -D~)
P/S: I am currently having this mother of a pimple on the right side of my face. It's seriously pissing me off. + another irritating one is growing on the right side of my upper lip ! I resign to having an oily face. NBCB !
Thursday, January 20, 2005
Can you reflect while high?
= my speakers sing [nothing.] =
just attended my colleague's wedding dinner. dont really know what my other colleagues were doing, as if i was the one marrying, made me drink to my limit. it's so nice to see and attend a wedding... makes me wonder when will be my turn... it was nice to see so many familiar faces in the crowds... although i was full to my limit by 1030pm... i could still recognize some of colleagues from other depts and chatted with them for abit.
anyway,
did some thinking while eatin at the dinner... this song kept popping up in my head... i guess it sums up what is going on in that tiny head of mine. i dont know why i keep pressuring myself but maybe cos if this doesn't work out, i'll most probably be a monk or something OR mayb cos i know im trying as hard as i can... ?
just attended my colleague's wedding dinner. dont really know what my other colleagues were doing, as if i was the one marrying, made me drink to my limit. it's so nice to see and attend a wedding... makes me wonder when will be my turn... it was nice to see so many familiar faces in the crowds... although i was full to my limit by 1030pm... i could still recognize some of colleagues from other depts and chatted with them for abit.
anyway,
did some thinking while eatin at the dinner... this song kept popping up in my head... i guess it sums up what is going on in that tiny head of mine. i dont know why i keep pressuring myself but maybe cos if this doesn't work out, i'll most probably be a monk or something OR mayb cos i know im trying as hard as i can... ?
Richard Marx - Right here Waiting.
Ocean's apart day after day
And i slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain
If i see you next to never
How can we say forever
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
I took for granted, all the times
That i thought would last somehow
I hear the laughter, i taste the tears
But i can't get near you now
Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me going crazy
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if i'm with you
I'll take the chance
Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me going crazy
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
Tuesday, January 18, 2005
What is my capability?
= my speakers sing [nothing.] =
All work and no play makes a cow really dull. been suddenly bombarded on work side and made a mix-up on my colleague's wedding and a mahjong session! dang ! i've been pressurized since a very long time... i think i need to take some leave to sortta recuperate mentally and physically...
anyway,
met mady and jeff last night while waiting for someone... met that someone eventually... but 2 bad she was tired... and those 2 idiots had to tag along... ended up sending her home only... wanted so much to talk to her... but where got chance... n she'll b on long flight n wont b back till saturday... at least i'll use these few days to think carefully and clear my mind... to find out what is really going inside my mind. i cant differenciate whether am i doing too much or too little... i wouldn't want to give her the impression of me pestering her... but im also afraid of doing too little... this is the point of time where i could use a little direction from her...
All work and no play makes a cow really dull. been suddenly bombarded on work side and made a mix-up on my colleague's wedding and a mahjong session! dang ! i've been pressurized since a very long time... i think i need to take some leave to sortta recuperate mentally and physically...
anyway,
met mady and jeff last night while waiting for someone... met that someone eventually... but 2 bad she was tired... and those 2 idiots had to tag along... ended up sending her home only... wanted so much to talk to her... but where got chance... n she'll b on long flight n wont b back till saturday... at least i'll use these few days to think carefully and clear my mind... to find out what is really going inside my mind. i cant differenciate whether am i doing too much or too little... i wouldn't want to give her the impression of me pestering her... but im also afraid of doing too little... this is the point of time where i could use a little direction from her...
Sunday, January 16, 2005
To be a better man... DONT OVER DO IT MAN !
= mtv sing [Kasabian - Processed Beats / Gwen Stefani - What you waiting for / Jay Z feat. Linkin Park - Numb/Encore] =
I tried shisha with jamady just now ! apparently tried it at the wrong shop... suck so hard, no smoke come out. knnbccb. the food was good though. nice atmosphere... but couldn't really concentrate. dropped by caesars, lack of mood. ended up at changi v instead.. crazy fellow, go all the way there to shit.
anyway,
this past few days have sort of been a whirlwind for me. maybe i'm just thinkin too much. maybe i shouldn't be pinning so much hopes. maybe i should not do anything. maybe i should just, shut the fuck up and die. some of my close friends have known by now that i'm on a full scale war to invade someone's heart. but i guess it's just the old me again, overdo-ing it as usual. i hate it when it happens. can't really seem to control myself. not saying that i'm a possessive maniac or control freak. maybe it's the emotions that have been couped up in me for the past few years and now suddenly, i have a chance to display them, it overflows like a furious, angry, raging rapid. oh well, i whine too much. if only she knows how much effort i'm willing to put in this... i'm definately pressuring myself too much. i just pray and hope...
" All I do each night is pray
Hoping that I'll be a part of you again someday
All I do each night is think of all the times
I close the door to keep my love within "
I tried shisha with jamady just now ! apparently tried it at the wrong shop... suck so hard, no smoke come out. knnbccb. the food was good though. nice atmosphere... but couldn't really concentrate. dropped by caesars, lack of mood. ended up at changi v instead.. crazy fellow, go all the way there to shit.
anyway,
this past few days have sort of been a whirlwind for me. maybe i'm just thinkin too much. maybe i shouldn't be pinning so much hopes. maybe i should not do anything. maybe i should just, shut the fuck up and die. some of my close friends have known by now that i'm on a full scale war to invade someone's heart. but i guess it's just the old me again, overdo-ing it as usual. i hate it when it happens. can't really seem to control myself. not saying that i'm a possessive maniac or control freak. maybe it's the emotions that have been couped up in me for the past few years and now suddenly, i have a chance to display them, it overflows like a furious, angry, raging rapid. oh well, i whine too much. if only she knows how much effort i'm willing to put in this... i'm definately pressuring myself too much. i just pray and hope...
" All I do each night is pray
Hoping that I'll be a part of you again someday
All I do each night is think of all the times
I close the door to keep my love within "
Friday, January 14, 2005
Boringness sets in.
= my speakers sing [silence.] =
You know that you're not enjoying your work when you drag your feet to work everyday. thats basically how i feel right now. i cant believe that the passion, no matter how much the amount is lost. sure i enjoy the job, but its the workin environment + the most impt of all, the colleagues that make the difference. i have sort of lost faith in some of my colleagues, esp the more impt ones... this really sucks your energy physically and mentally. thats how draggin ur feet to work came about. rofl.
anyway,
this new year has been sort of great so far. personal life wise. haa. lets just say, there was this girl whom i saw many years ago... i still can remember the first time i saw her... i cannot forget those images in my head. i asked my friend, "whos that girl?" then thought to myself, this girl is a knockout ! so time flew past, a few years down the road, we see changes, each of us left poly for our future but at the expense of losin contact... so in 2k3, we managed to get in touch again. on n off on n off we'll meet up a couple of times a year... until recently, she's goin thru a rough patch now... but i wan to let her know that i'll b there for her when she needs someone. there are so many things that i want to tell her... but we'll just wait and see what happens... for now that is... ya? *cross my fingers*
heres a new resolution. To Romance a certain person and let her feel that she should be treated the way she deserves to be. ^_^
You know that you're not enjoying your work when you drag your feet to work everyday. thats basically how i feel right now. i cant believe that the passion, no matter how much the amount is lost. sure i enjoy the job, but its the workin environment + the most impt of all, the colleagues that make the difference. i have sort of lost faith in some of my colleagues, esp the more impt ones... this really sucks your energy physically and mentally. thats how draggin ur feet to work came about. rofl.
anyway,
this new year has been sort of great so far. personal life wise. haa. lets just say, there was this girl whom i saw many years ago... i still can remember the first time i saw her... i cannot forget those images in my head. i asked my friend, "whos that girl?" then thought to myself, this girl is a knockout ! so time flew past, a few years down the road, we see changes, each of us left poly for our future but at the expense of losin contact... so in 2k3, we managed to get in touch again. on n off on n off we'll meet up a couple of times a year... until recently, she's goin thru a rough patch now... but i wan to let her know that i'll b there for her when she needs someone. there are so many things that i want to tell her... but we'll just wait and see what happens... for now that is... ya? *cross my fingers*
heres a new resolution. To Romance a certain person and let her feel that she should be treated the way she deserves to be. ^_^
Monday, January 10, 2005
Work sucks, I know, You'll be at my show...
= my speakers sing [nothing] =
been drinkin pretty hard within the last week or so. i think it's high time for me to cut down... although i still got a bottle of chivas at caesars waitin for me... haa.
anyway,
went down to liquidrm on di's bday... my first and i wonder why the hell is the place so bloody smoky ! they have this certain service that irritates me to hell. whenever an unlighted fag is revealed, their waiters will promptly brandish a freaking lighter. it's just like one of those scenes in that jackie chan movie, Tuxedo ya? i nearly slapped 1 of their waiter's hand off when he tried to light my cig ! LOL. poor di was so drunk... i've still got that bottle of chivas waiting for her ! haa. i definately need to add cut down drinkin to 1 of my resolutions.
i think im reaching a point where there isnt enough happenings for me to relate to my blog. call it a blogger's block or writer's block but i sure aint a bloody writer.
anyway,
off to work it is for me. i'll try to blog more provided the inspirations come... oh ya, more pics hopefully. till then, it's sucky work vs sucky me. ~~~
been drinkin pretty hard within the last week or so. i think it's high time for me to cut down... although i still got a bottle of chivas at caesars waitin for me... haa.
anyway,
went down to liquidrm on di's bday... my first and i wonder why the hell is the place so bloody smoky ! they have this certain service that irritates me to hell. whenever an unlighted fag is revealed, their waiters will promptly brandish a freaking lighter. it's just like one of those scenes in that jackie chan movie, Tuxedo ya? i nearly slapped 1 of their waiter's hand off when he tried to light my cig ! LOL. poor di was so drunk... i've still got that bottle of chivas waiting for her ! haa. i definately need to add cut down drinkin to 1 of my resolutions.
i think im reaching a point where there isnt enough happenings for me to relate to my blog. call it a blogger's block or writer's block but i sure aint a bloody writer.
anyway,
off to work it is for me. i'll try to blog more provided the inspirations come... oh ya, more pics hopefully. till then, it's sucky work vs sucky me. ~~~
Saturday, January 01, 2005
Happy 2k5.
= mtv sings [Embrace - Gravity / Outkast - Ghetto Musick] =
Happy New Year ! May all your new year wishes come true. I've just personally celebrated new year's at Caesars. Enjoyed myself thoroughly there together with jacob, mao n his kakis, lingyi, mel and of course gibby. I received free kisses ! ROFL! The most interesting incident happened there. Gibson Yap got drunk ! He practically puked all over the place. The bill amounted to SGD$805/- after discount. WOW. It's like the most expensive session to date ever with myself in attendance. Got back only around SGD$562/-. Still have SGD$244/- balance. As much as I can afford it, it's still... WOW. 9 glasses n 8 Jugs of KilKenny... but it was the mixers that killed the bill. The mixers totalled to SGD$270/- !!!
anyway,
Back to Gibson... He practically puked everywhere he went ! Once at Caesars, (puked on mel.) Another at the taxi-stand of Bugis Junction. He also puked... all over himself ! This is by far the first time I've ever seen him puke and he had to make a bloody mess of out himself ! I would'nt have thought that on a night like this, he would be down instead of me. But I have concluded that Caesars would be a place ONLY for drinking sessions for the small group. The cost of drinking there is huge man.
Resolutions for the New Year:
1) Make her fall in love with me ALL OVER AGAIN.
2) Make more $
3) Buy a car
4) Settle down where work is related
5) Refine my relationships with my friends !
I'm like ½ full now but I'll still keep this post short. Tired dey, tomorrow still working somemore. Well, hopefully I'll have more to post tomorrow night ! Till then, Happy Bloody 2k5 ! (In case you were wondering why I trying my best to use perfect english, I'm a tinsy bit high. ROFLMAO.)
... ... ... Hopefully, she'll have a wonderful new year too? I wish her all the best for 2k5.
Happy New Year ! May all your new year wishes come true. I've just personally celebrated new year's at Caesars. Enjoyed myself thoroughly there together with jacob, mao n his kakis, lingyi, mel and of course gibby. I received free kisses ! ROFL! The most interesting incident happened there. Gibson Yap got drunk ! He practically puked all over the place. The bill amounted to SGD$805/- after discount. WOW. It's like the most expensive session to date ever with myself in attendance. Got back only around SGD$562/-. Still have SGD$244/- balance. As much as I can afford it, it's still... WOW. 9 glasses n 8 Jugs of KilKenny... but it was the mixers that killed the bill. The mixers totalled to SGD$270/- !!!
anyway,
Back to Gibson... He practically puked everywhere he went ! Once at Caesars, (puked on mel.) Another at the taxi-stand of Bugis Junction. He also puked... all over himself ! This is by far the first time I've ever seen him puke and he had to make a bloody mess of out himself ! I would'nt have thought that on a night like this, he would be down instead of me. But I have concluded that Caesars would be a place ONLY for drinking sessions for the small group. The cost of drinking there is huge man.
Resolutions for the New Year:
1) Make her fall in love with me ALL OVER AGAIN.
2) Make more $
3) Buy a car
4) Settle down where work is related
5) Refine my relationships with my friends !
I'm like ½ full now but I'll still keep this post short. Tired dey, tomorrow still working somemore. Well, hopefully I'll have more to post tomorrow night ! Till then, Happy Bloody 2k5 ! (In case you were wondering why I trying my best to use perfect english, I'm a tinsy bit high. ROFLMAO.)
... ... ... Hopefully, she'll have a wonderful new year too? I wish her all the best for 2k5.
