WOW.

= my speakers sing [songs of love?] = & = i'm feeling... [Enthralled.] =

This has got to be the weirdest and best valentine's day i've ever spent. well, actually this is the first valentine's day i spent with a girl. (stop sniggering. -.-) it has definately been a very very enriching experience.

anyway,

spent it with her of course. brought her to the beach at changi ! a little corner tucked away just nice for the two of us. we had a very very nice heart to heart talk and i let it be known to her about my feelings. i said some really fucking corny lines that even when i think abt it, goosebumps will popup. (i meant every single word i say.) i told her not to answer me immediately, instead to think abt it over the week. afterall, i'll only get to see her on sunday... hopefully, she's willing to take a dive with me. (pun not intended.) but the last hour with her at her void deck allowed me to have another perception of her. (dont worry my dear, its not for the worst.) i actually did enjoy it. i mean, it's not everyday some1 of the opposite sex shares some things with you that you would have NEVER EVER imagined it being told. but i really did enjoy that conversation we had. i mean, i enjoyed her company the whole night, but that is like the icing on the cake.

(im super tired. i gotta attend a meeting in an hrs time. fuck.)
in summary, i just want her to know that, no matter what happens, i don't care if u dump me for another guy, if u told every1 else i have piles, if u decide to rape me n leave me, bottomline, i just want you to be happy. really. if i could help u tide thru this period. i'd love to. but love is always unconditional. i give but to expect no returns would be lying to you. i only wish to hear u say that u have liked or tried to like me in the process. i would be satisfied. call me a dumb bloody mofo, but this is how much i like you. (stop saying ure screwed up. i certainly dont think so.)

i just hope for a chance for something to happen. i really want u to know what you've been missing all these years. haa.