*screams*

= my speakers sing [光良 - 握你的手] = & = i'm feeling... [tired.] =

[ 迪克牛仔 - 原来你什么都不要 ]
我知道这样不好
也知道你的爱只能那么少
我只有不停的要要到你想逃

泪湿的枕头晒乾就好
眼泪在你的心里只是无理取闹
以为在你身后
是我一辈子的骄傲
原来你什么都不想要

我不要你的呵护你的玫瑰
只要你好好久久爱我一遍
就算虚荣也好贪心也好
哪个男人对爱不自私不奢望

我不要你的承诺不要你的永远
只要你真真切切爱我一遍
就算虚荣也好贪心也好
最怕你把沉默当做对我的回答
喔...你的回答
喔...原来你
喔...喔
原来你什么都不想要

愿来，
可能，
我不需要童话般的爱情。。。
我只是想找个能爱我或喜欢我的人。。。
很难吗？
世界几多人，
茫茫人海中，
我在寻找的她在那里？

just received a call from... amao sometime this week ! that bloody mofo is happily enjoying himself in Thailand while lim peh is sipping lonely drinks all alone in Singapore ! knn ! oh well.
it happens sometimes. he's coming back on the 7th... but i'm working morning shift ! wtf ! hopefully i'm able to get leave and meet him for drinks when he comes back. i think someone will appreciate me taking leave on that day too... :D

anyway,

work is very hectic this week. almost work, off, work, off... argh. me strong. me can survive. me a survivor ! me getting very tired ! me will smoke more ! me will drink more ! me will play more ! me will wank more ! (?! maybe not.) me will sleep more ! me will stfu and go to sleep now !

on a sidenote... a reservist colleague of mine told me something fucking funny the other day while we were working...

Him: "eh bang, have you considered what you're gonna do after your contract?"

Lim Peh: "not really, maybe study, maybe continue, depends on the situation lor. why?"

Him: "have you ever considered being a cabin crew?"

Lim Peh: "(WTF)?! ... ?!?!?!?! hm... oh really. why the sudden suggestion? what you working as?"

Him: "i've been a steward for the past decade. go try la... you should be able to make it."

Lim Peh: "SQ ah?"

Him: "ya."

Lim Peh: "right... (wtf)if i can get in, pigs can fly. or rather, Singapore will have millions of stewards running around."

Him: "no la... it's not hard for you. you qualification, you got the height, you got the looks."

Lim Peh: "(disgusted look + silent WTF) huh? looks? come on la bang, lets be realistic, im not really the kind of head turner guy lor... even if heads do turn, they would be facing the toilet bowl lor..."

Him: "hahahahahaha... go try la... just go try. you got nothing to lose also mah..."

Lim Peh: "heh. i'll think about it? afterall, i still got 2 years left in my contract...(wtf)"

Him: "oh ya. fuck, i forgot about that part. just remember this suggestion when your contract ends ah..."

Lim Peh: "right. (half hearted smile) shall we go smoke? (thinks WTFx10)"

hm. imagine... lim peh as cabin crew. dressed in that cool blue uniform singing,
"it's the only way to fly~" (whatever the lyrics.)
HA HA HA. what a fucking joke.
1. i cannot imagine myself dressed as one of the stewards. (i got bad dress sense.)
2. i'll be the laughing stock of SQ and Singapore.
3. i'll be the laughing stock with my friends.

but...

then again...

the idea is nice...

travelling and looking around... taking on the world on my own... it's always a nice idea. maybe? maybe not... for obvious reasons. duh. wtf. since i still got 2 years of my current job left, i shall not dwell on this much. since i know where i stand... im not cut out for that kinda job, although he did mention that service oriented personnel are gladly welcomed. still, i know i have the cmi face thus, i already know what the end result will be. hahaha. what a joke man. in a sense, it's a funny and cruel joke. oh well, shit happens, anything goes. *fuck care attitude*